At 11:32pm on Day 12 of Dying to be Perfect’s Christmas holiday in the BLACK challenge. My morning started off in the RED. I slept horribly; awoke every two hours after not falling asleep until after 12am. I left the house late and was therefore late for my second day of work. My bank account is now -258.72 and I have 13 miles until E. My job is 9 miles away. Mike sent me 75.00 via cash app (haven’t received any help since May), which was taken by the overdraft. I was frustrated; however, my trainer is relaxed. I knew that ten minutes would be ok, and if it wasn’t, that was fine too. Life is short and although at times I get nervous or a bit concerned, I know that as always, God will make a way. My account is in the negative because there was nothing going into it. No funds are being deposited.
While working as a Store Manager for a well-known retail chain, my bank account was in the positive, my mental health account was in the negative. Like my bank account, I was constantly pouring from an empty source at work and getting dumped on while getting nothing back mentally. In addition, I was being drained by the events of the separation and all else that was taking place. What I was putting out outweighed what was being deposited. For me, at this time in my life, I choose Peace. My mental health takes priority over everything. The way I look at it, if we take care of our mental health by properly identifying the issues, getting proper treatment, etc. we will be in the proper frame of minds to take care of our physical health by eating right, exercising, practicing proper hygiene and social habits. When we are in a better frame of mind and thinking properly, we naturally make better choices.
Once we stop trying to pour from an empty cup, we will be in such a better place. This Christmas is an opportunity to get a glimpse of how great life can be going forward. A peace of mind …letting go of the past…release the person who wants to let you go. If they don’t want you, there’s someone better for you who will love and appreciate you correctly, the way you deserve. No dead weight in 2022…We are starting with a fresh cup. Even if I start 2022 with my bank account in the RED, I know that my mind, my spirit, my life and everything that matters in it will be in the BLACK…Positive. And that is a move forward in the direction of Peace. I know that with a healthy mind and a continuous positive mindset, my bank account being in the BLACK...positive is just a matter of time.
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