As I reflect on the last two and a half years of my life, a million thoughts go through my mind. Disbelief, excitement, thankfulness, and confirmation, to name a few. One that doesn’t creep in is doubt. I am everything except doubtful about any of the thoughts that I have now. The opportunity for me to share my story…to tell the world…about how God saved my life, is what I am the most positive about. For so long, I was afraid to move. My feet remained stuck…as if in quicksand. No matter how far I seemed to place one foot in front of the other, I would end further behind or remain in the same place. This revolving door feeling had me frustrated and feeling as if I had failed myself and my children.
Although financially my situation is much worse, my mental state is better than I can remember. I am actually excited about the possibilities that lie ahead. For the first time in my life, I am on my own, and HAPPY! I realize that it doesn’t matter if I am alone. I LOVE ME! Yes, I still want to marry…have the happily ever after; to share my life with a partner. I love marriage…partnership…companionship…LOVE. Moreover, I love me. I have fallen so in love with putting me first…accepting nothing less than what I want for me. The sacrifices that I made previously were always for others. My children and family came first and then my job. Now, not even a job can come before me. My mental health is the number one priority in my life. I realize that caring for my mind enables me to think clearly. I make better decisions and they are based off of MY needs and not the needs of others.
This self-love has nothing to do with being SELFISH. I am still giving and caring of others. I simply make sure my needs are met first. Looking back, I see that much of my loneliness came from giving so much of myself FREELY yet receiving little in return from those whom I gave to. I’m not referring to monetarily or physically giving, I mean just time…being there. Now that I am putting me first all I can think about is what lies ahead for me. Telling my story for men and women alike, so that they can fall in love with themselves is the best awakening God has ever given me. It’s funny how we get caught up in twisting our world around to hold on to relationships that make us mentally unwell, yet we won’t take the time to work on our mental health in order to fall completely in love with ourselves.
We often wonder if there’s healing after loss. Yes! But the mind has to be healed first.
MENTAL HEALTH IS KEY
Until we fix the root cause of what allowed us to love ourselves so little that we accepted anything less than what we deserved, we will repeat the cycle in various relationships. HEALTHY MINDS LEAD TO HEALTHY AND HAPPIER LIVES…God created us in his image and likeness. We are too great not to be loved completely. If we don’t receive love the way we want it, refuse the scraps and love on ourselves until the right one comes along.
True faith tells us that every trial and tribulation is meant to prepare us for our greater self. We cannot waste another second wondering if love and happiness is possible …GO AFTER IT!!!The time is Now!!!
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