MY SOUL IS TIRED…MY TANK IS EMPTY…MY SPIRIT IS DRAINED…MY CUP IS EMPTY
I simply have nothing else to give. Being an empath, I am completely exhausted. I am no longer willing to give more than I receive. It baffles me why people think that it is ok for them to constantly take from relationships yet refuse to reciprocate. As much as I miss the comfort, security and familiarity that a relationship brings, the thought of another heartbreak is too much to bear.
These feelings of hurt, heartbreak, frustration, anger, hate, loneliness, depression, doubt, insecurity, and many other unidentifiable feelings have crept into my mind all week. I have been on an emotional roller coaster, again dealing with various hormonal changes. This becomes increasingly difficult as the months go by, and life continues to happen. With Valentine’s Day quickly approaching, my emotions are getting the best of me. Being in the middle of an ugly divorce, and truly desiring to settle down once again, I am disappointed by the lack of desirable options there are to choose from in mates.
The way I see it, love is truly too valuable to not be fully appreciated. Moreover, true love is hard to come by; therefore, we cannot continue to accept the pieces of themselves others are able to give. The excuse of being hurt previously or protecting one’s heart is nonsense and a poor excuse for not giving a relationship a fair chance. People deserve to be loved wholly, equally, and fully. Continuing to engage in relationships halfheartedly is immoral, unethical, and unfair to the parties involved. I had to tell myself that when we are in the right relationship, EVERYDAY IS VALENTINE’S DAY. It’s times like these that I begin to hear God speaking to me. He reminds me of where he brought me from.
I’m living proof of what the mercy of God can do. I’m alive today as a testimony to tell the story of how I’ve overcome. I’m glad my freedom isn’t based on what I’ve done. I’ve made some choices that I regret but I’m alive today to tell my story because of God’s grace and mercy. He turned my whole life completely upside down in order to get my attention. I’ve been made free by the mercy of God. He reminded me that there is still POWER IN THE BLOOD OF JESUS…I can be made whole again…HIS blood can wash away my sins. I THANK God for second, third and fourth chances. Without them I would not have this opportunity to live HIS PURPOUSE for my life…to tell others about the goodness and mercy of God and to be a testament of how good God is. If He can do it for me, He can do it for you. JUST HOLD ON
MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS
Dying to be Perfect 