For the last two nights, here in Maryland and surrounding counties, there have been severe storms. Many people have been awakened in the middle of the night by the loud thunder and crackles of lightning. This morning, in particular, after the rain that took place overnight, there were still overcast skies. Although we are in the beginning of Summer, and it is June 24th, it feels like it could be early April. The temperature feels great to me, and the gloominess matches my mood.
As for many, the rain, thunder, and gloom, all can play a part in a person’s mental state. They all exacerbate my depression. Adding the gloomy weather to the stress that is taking place in a person’s life, without a strong mental state of mind and unrelenting support system, those who suffer from mental illnesses such as depression and anxiety are more likely to regress. For this reason, I cannot afford to invest myself into disloyal people. While psychologists don’t consider empathy as a psychological disorder, I do. As an empath, I am extremely sensitive. Most empaths are. Because I have a hard outer shell, I’m misread as mean, however, I become mean AFTER I’m taken for granted and misused. Where most people walk away and become vengeful or refuse to give, empaths genuinely empathize with and care for other people. Oftentimes, we place our needs on hold. When we no longer accept the mistreatment we receive, it negatively effects relationships. All of this adds to my depression…I definitely consider this …anything that would add to my stress level, A DISORDER.
With the gloominess of the morning, and all of the difficulties that my family, friends and supporters and I are experiencing, I refused to allow this day and my problems…the problems of this world to keep me down. My past four days have been spent in the house. I have not left my home for fear of something else negative happening. I feel almost as if my staying home will make the world stop, just like the rain stops as a rainbow begins to form. The storm is over, the rain has ceased, but still no rainbow.
Things continue to decline in my life, the life of my friends, my supporters…all around us, yet I know that there is light. It is the light from the rainbow; the light from the sun that is coming after the storm is over and the rain has ended. I know and believe that God is making a way. He is preparing better situations for each of us. As we wait out the storm, praising Him, never losing our faith, being disciples, there will be a rainbow after or storm. Our personal rainbow will be His fulfillment of the promise to bring no more storms if we remain faithful to Him. Exodus 28: 1-5 “Blue, purple, and scarlet were decreed colors for the garments of Moses’ brother Aaron and the other first, high priests ordained by God.” “These colors worn by priests and in a cloth on the ark of the covenant represented atonement, seeking a better relationship between God and people“. If we are faithful to God, he will be faithful to us. He allows the storms so that He can show us the rainbow.
All we have to do is continue to do our part and remain focused and faithfully live the life he has given us for HIS purpose. I trust that if we unceasingly do our part by taking care of ourselves mind, body, and spirit, God will do the rest. We’ll See the Rainbow After the Storm.
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