As I sit here on the day after my 52nd birthday, I am speechless. I am nothing but grateful for all that God has done for me. It is a miracle that I am alive to tell how good God has been in my life. I can’t even count all of the miracles he has performed in my life. God literally spared my life on several occasions and continues to do so. I lost count of how many miracles he has performed in my life; for that alone, I am thankful.
After living most of my life dreading birthdays, this has been the most amazing year ever! I had to cancel a pre-paid trip and ended up in rent court fighting eviction instead. Nothing I planned went as planned, yet I had the best birthday that I’ve had in at least ten years, which was my trip to St. Thomas. Yesterday, for the first time, I felt a sense of peace, confidence, relief and overall, FAITH that I have never felt before. I know that God will continue to see be through. I do not take His love for granted. I know that this is MY WINNING SEASON. He did not bring me through the fire to leave me. God has pulled me from some dark places and turning 52 is a blessing. I will live this final chapter of my life serving Him. This is the final chapter because I have nowhere to go from here but up. There are no more setbacks only come backs. There will only be forward progress from this point on because the people places and things that God has placed around me have been to assist in my elevation and not to assist in my detriment. Those who once participated in my downfall will soon take a front row seat to my success. I refuse to lose faith after the miracles that I have seen God perform in my life; I just can’t count them all. Thinking about how he saved my life and set me free brings tears to my eyes. One has to experience the goodness of God in order to understand my gratefulness.
I googled the number 52, and it supposedly represents several things that align with the direction in which I have been going with my life. On a mental, spiritual and emotional level, the parallels are amazing. To summarize, it states, “Encountering the angel number 52, it’s not a random coincidence but a direct message from the angelic realm. Angel numbers are one of the most common ways your guardian angels make their presence felt every day! Sometimes they will answer your prayers through dreams, signs, and symbols. Sometimes they will trigger a miraculous healing or breakthrough. 52 is a number of introspections, mental acuity, and expression of personal freedom. The 52 meaning also focuses on the need to have courage when you are experiencing difficulties. You should not allow yourself to be defeated by hard times and bad situations because they give you the chance to show just what you are made of. Your guardian angels are encouraging you to turn your hurts and disappointments into something good. Always look for the silver lining, and never give up hope! When you keep seeing 52, you are being reminded to make progress instead of throwing in the towel and losing the fight.”
When I read this, I was totally convinced. 52 is my number. 52 is my year. 49 may have been when my life forever changed, however, 52 is the age that my life changed for the better. 52 is the age that I realized that I was going to forge ahead in God’s purpose, in faith, allowing Him to continue to perform more miracles. I decided, thinking about my physical, mental and emotional scars, that God has not stopped performing miracles in my life. I would lose count trying to remember how many miracles he has performed on behalf of a sinner like me. I just thank God for his many miracles. I feel my victory!
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