GOD IS MY CONSTANT

The month of October has come in the same way September went out…RAGING LIKE A STORM. As I reflect on all that has transpired within the past thirty days, I am awestruck by God’s Grace and Mercy. I realize that He has been, and continues to be, MY CONSTANT. Through each phase of life I go through; good or difficult (there’s good in everything), He places me in positions to win. Even in my losses, I am winning.

Over these past four and a half years, I have lost many things. Some of my seasons have been plentiful; others barren. There were periods where I felt on top of the world 🌎, and others where I felt as if I were beneath it. Lifelong relationships have ended and new ones have formed. I have lost material possessions and have gained new ones. There have been periods of homelessness and there were times I had the best. Through all of this, GOD HAS BEEN MY CONSTANT.

Even as I sit here writing this, many will fail to comprehend why. Those closest to me will not support my efforts to share my story. Some are afraid to hear of their negligence, while others are afraid of seeing their own story through mine. My purpose is not to blame, point fingers or evoke guilt. The purpose for my transparency is to allow others to know that God is true, mental health is important, and that life happens to us all. It is for the purpose of saving others.

There are so many people out here who are battling depression, and fighting to find a reason to keep living simply because of all that is going on in their daily lives. I’m one of those people. I need others to know that they aren’t alone. There is no shame in struggles, starting over or needing help, and we should never allow others to make us feeI as if life’s difficulties are isolated to us…we all have them. I know firsthand that God is real. I know that He is a Way maker and I know that prayer works. I am a testimony to the fact that what we give we receive ten fold. God never said life would be easy. He did say that He would be with us to guide us through our storms, and never leave us DEUTERONOMY 31:8 “he will never leave you; he will not leave you or forsake you“. Therefore, never give up. Continue to pray, and believe that right in the nick of time, God will work things out for your good.

My excitement, while I write ✍️ this, is uncontrollable. I mean, as of yesterday, I had been denied for three different apartments and a mortgage had fallen through. My credit score dropped 200 points within two months. No one wants to take a chance on me, yet God does every time. They don’t care about the circumstances that lead me here. All they see is the inconsistencies on paper. How I ended up here is not a concern for anyone, and to most, it’s my fault. I’m greatful that GOD IS CONSISTENT. I’m thankful that He sees beyond my credit score, my work history over these past four years, and what I owe. I’m blessed because He sees beyond my smile, the sparkle in my eyes, my weight gain, what I drive…or don’t, what I wear, my tears…my outward appearance. To God, it matters not what is my bank account. God knows that if I have 5.00 or 500.00, I have a pure heart and am Me, UNAPOLOGETICALLY. He knows that I will give my last. GOD IS MY CONSTANT, and this is why I continue to have faith.

When we judge, we end up only seeing the situation overall, and we fail to recognize the circumstances that initiated the situation. For example, all some see is the homeless person. They fail to wonder what series of events caused the person to become homeless. For a long time, no one knew that I had been homeless. I wasn’t standing on a corner, yet I had no address. Again, just recently, I found myself in the process of being in this situation again. The movers were coming this morning 🌄 and I had nowhere to go. Boxes 📦 are packed, storage unit purchased, downsizing yet again, and prepared to be homeless again…This time, I sat still. I waited on God because HE IS MY CONSTANT.

For these last ten months, as I attended church, looked for jobs, dealt with health issues, fought with unemployment, fought in divorce court, planned functions, supported others in need, etc I fought daily, the will to give up. So many thought I was unreliable or simply not supportive of them. Little did they know that I was and am currently, mentally, physically, financially and often, spiritually bound by things they couldn’t imagine…things beyond my control.

Daily, I fought with wanting badly to be done with the hurt, abandonment, betrayals, fear, frustration, financial hardships…I have had enough. Rather than give up, I prayed, wondered, cried, shared, continued to fight and finally stood still. I waited for God to do His will. As everything around me fell apart, I often did too. Yes, I cried, yelled, worried, and tried to fix it. In the end, however, I gave it to God and continued to pray. My human side was afraid of the unknown, but my spiritual side…my FAITH knew that God would show up. I received confirmation. Today, my living situation has been resolved. God, like every other time, showed up. When others didn’t or couldn’t, GOD WAS MY CONSTANT.

No matter how bleak your situation is, don’t give up on God. Pray and wait on Him. He will give you all that you need. He is a deliverer, restorer and a God of second chances. Continue to trust and believe and you will make it through.

Had I succumbed to my fears, I would not be here to witness God’s greatness in my life. Had I not trusted in Him, this testimony would not be. No matter what I face, though tired, I have faith that every loss will turn into a win. What God has removed, He has replaced it each time with greater. Although I continue to navigate through the difficulties along my path, GOD IS MY CONSTANT. I have peace in knowing that my transparency will save others, and that I’m a winner 🏆 🥇 in the end.

Dani❤️💋

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