The best thing that God ever did, was to teach me that I am the most important person in my life. I learned this when I began to discern His purpose for my life. Constantly praying, and asking God “why” and “what are you trying to tell me. Slowly I realized that I was running from God. I was scared. I was content. Most of all, I was placing my love for my family and friends above self-love. It took discernment, patience and love, but it was worth it.
The first thing I did was to stop putting the happiness of others before my own. Since l began putting me first, I have been the happiest that I have ever been in my life. For as long as I can remember, I allowed my love for others to outweigh my happiness. Seeing 👀 that others were ok, was more important than my own feelings. Although I would express my feelings, l constantly compromised what I wanted for the sake of others. As a result, I found myself hurting alot, and asking myself, why God was allowing me to constantly get hurt. After all, I had so much love to give. I was always trying to support, ecourage, teach, uplift and build others; many of those same have turned against me. My loyalty never seemed to be appreciated or reciprocated. What was worse, people hated to hear the truth, (still do) but always wanted to criticize me. I have people who have mistreated me, lied on me, and stopped talking to me for no reason. In the past, I would try to fix it. I questioned me. I repeatedly asked God what was wrong with me. What we must realize, is that, when we truly love ourselves, we don’t accept others to mistreat us. This is why self-love is so important. This is also THE POWER OF DISCERNMENT.
After coming face to face with the realities of death, it dawned on me, that God had been answering me the entire time. I was simply too spiritually immature to realize it. As I matured spiritually, I began to see that DISCERNMENT was important for my spiritual growth. I came to the realization, that although I had been a victim of my circumstances, I too, had to take ownership for some of my experiences. I gave too many chances, lowered my standards, accepted less than I should have and more…all in the name of love. It took work, years of therapy, medication 💊, self assessment and reflection, but the HOPE, PEACE, JOY and LOVE I have is worth it.
I had to learn how to Love me FIRST after God. I was always used to loving my family first, and almost didnt bounce back from it. After suffering repeated losses, and hurts, experiencing failure after failure, and walking away from people, places and things that no longer reciprocated the love I gave, I came to realize that there are many empathetic people out there who simply want to be loved.
We are women and men, old and young, black and white; hurting, lonely, struggling…ALONE. I speak with these people daily. They have been ridiculed, outcast, hurt, violated and more. They have been victimized, yet no one cares. For so long they have carried this weight, yet they have no voice. I HAVE ALWAYS HAD MY VOICE. I now see, after all of these years, that everything that I have been through, has been to speak for those who cannot. God gave me a voice; made this my purpose…TO ADVOCATE FOR WHAT IS GOOD. When listening to God, we’ll find that there is POWER IN DISCERNMENT.
On this beautiful Saturday, as I think about what is next, I know that it will include a lot more discernment in order to carefully walk 🚶♀️ in the purpose that I know God has planned for me. I’m excited about my future. Although life has been difficult, I am honored and humbled that God chose a sinner like me to give a testimony to how truly merciful and forgiving He is. It took the gift of DISCERNMENT to lead me to being able to listen and trust. Without opening my ears 👂 and my heart ❤️, I would not have been open to therapy, or criticism. It is in Seeing our imperfections; becoming self aware, that we are able to grow.
I now have a love for God and myself that supercedes anything in this world 🌎. For this reason, I wouldn’t go back to where I was. My struggles made me who I am, and God wanted me right here and right now. I’m excited about what is to come. I am determined to get all that God has for me. THERE IS SO MUCH JOY IN MY HEART, AND IM LETTING NOTHING TAKE IT AWAY!!!!!! GOD IS AMAZING IN SPITE OF, AND I AM THANKFUL! I am determined to continue to walk in my Prayerful Purpose in 2024. IT’S MY SEASON OF MORE!
Dani💋❤️
Turning My Pain into My Prayerful Purpose
Mind, Body, Spirit
MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS!!!
Defy the Stigma!
