We all process grief differently. For some, it comes and goes, and for others, it never ends. I’ve been grieving this week on and off, and for various reasons. My children are hurting, my ex narcissist is being his normal BAN self. The main reason for my grief is because of my uncle’s birthday, grandmother’s birthday, and grandparents anniversary all being this week. On top of that, my uncle’s death anniversary is near.
My grandparents raised me. They were my idols. I think of them often, and wonder if they are proud of the mother I am. I often ask them to whisper my name and the names of my children in God’s ear. My grandmother was an amazing and loving mother and protector, who did all she could for her children, and grandchildren. I see so much of her in myself. My grandfather…WELL, MAYBE ONE DAY, THERE WILL BE A MAN AS PERFECT AS HIM. I wish that my children get to experience the love, affection, protection, dedication and fatherly love, that I experienced from both my Uncle Georgie Poo, and my Granddaddy. Surely, I missed the mark.
Although my grandmother and I had our battles, I loved her. I thought her strength was amazing, and she instilled morals, values, and a catholic faith in me that I will never forget. Most of all, the dedication to her family and friends was unmatched. My grandparents, were married for sixty-five years, and passed six months within each other. I will forever, grieve their loss. It’s a healthy grief, however. My grieving, simply, reminds me, why I am so dedicated to my family and friends, why standing up for others is so important, and that leaving a legacy for my children is a must.
The legacy that was left by my grandparents, was one of love, support, and service to others. This is the legacy I am leaving to my children. This is why I consistently aim to focus on steering them on the right path, and focus on building on my nonprofit. I desire to have my babies carry on the giving heart, and love for community, that my grandmother was known for. My grief, it gives me purpose. Allow yours to do the same.
Dani💋❤️
Turning the Pain into My Prayerful Purpose
Mind, Body, Spirit
MENTAL HEALTH MATTERS!!!
Defy the Stigma!
Dying to be Perfect 