Happy Wednesday!
As I sit here, I’m trying to hold back the tears, but they won’t stop flowing. As I look at the calendar, I am reminded, that it is yet another year, coming to a close, with no resolution, to the madness. Six years, and still…HERE I AM. Six Thanksgivings, Six Christmases, and yes…Six New Years’ of living in the madness of an unresolved situation.
As much as I strive to push through this STILL UNRESOLVED situation, the effects of my financial abuse, makes it nearly impossible, to ignore, the ache in my heart. Not the pain from a failed marriage, but the pain from the loss of my family and friends. I can’t help but to remember my children; the smiles on their faces made me smile. I can hear the laughter that filled the space; if my family was happy, I was happy. I see my friends; I loved to entertain. My home was filled with love…despite the abuse. Just as I remember the bad times, the joyful times, are fresh in my mind.
With the holidays being here, the nostalgia sets in. Today, I find it difficult to find the Joy in this holiday; difficult, yet not impossible. Each day, I push forward. I use my Hope to find a reason to go on. Although it’s been difficult, I allow the Love in my heart, to keep me going, and the Peace I feel, to never go back to that place…of misery, abuse, control…toxicity. Each day is different. Some days are better than others. Yesterday, was better than today, so I have HOPE for tomorrow; therefore I am reminded to go on.
These virtues…JOY, PEACE, HOPE and LOVE, allow me to put things into perspective, and I am able to KEEP GOING. This however, doesn’t prevent me from experiencing, the BLUES that the holidays bring. There are many who are hurting, lost, lonely, and sad right now. We need each other to make it through the holidays. If you’re hurting, know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Let’s lean on each other, and heal. Together, we can make a difference in the lives of one another. Be gentle…Be loving…Be kind. JUST LOVE
GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I
Let’s Heal Together!
Dani💋❤️
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