A Woman In WAITING

I’m sitting here, looking out of my balcony window. As I listen to the rain beat against the window ledge, I think about all that I need to do. I’m about to go on a mini vacation, and I still haven’t packed. I have to do my hair, and I need to take my walk. Even with so much to do, I’M WAITING.

I have no idea what I’m waiting for; the rain to stop, possibly. For someone to pack for me, maybe. As much as I love to travel, I dislike packing. As much as I love the rain, I dislike being in it. With this being my reality, I find myself ALWAYS WAITING. For my entire life, I’ve waited. I was always waiting for something. Today, I realize that I’m no longer, A WOMAN IN WAITING.

As a child, I waited for my father; who never came. I waited for a mother to show me that she wanted me; it never happened. As a young woman, I waited for others to show up. As an older woman, I waited for a husband who could see me, and only me; to no avail. I waited to be enough; I never was. As a wife and mother, I waited for my family to be be perfect, before I took care of me; an impossibility. As a loving woman, I waited for the perfect love; someone to love me as much as I loved them; that’s subjective. As a wise woman, I realize that I am in control of my life; loving me first, requires no waiting.

As the clock continues to tick, the more I’m realizing that in this season, I can’t wait if I wanted to. The pure joy that resides deep within my soul, allows me to no longer wait. I can’t wait now, if I wanted to.

I’m not waiting for people, validation, recognition, accolades, appreciation, thank you’s, or the perfect time, to do that “thing” I want to do. God has lead me to the “No more waiting ” section. With God’s guidance, assurance, protection, and love, I’m not waiting for another minute, to love, or be loved. I’m not waiting on a ride, until I lose weight, or until the perfect time, to go where I want to go, or do what I want to do…I AM NO LONGER A WOMAN IN WAITING.

I am a Woman With Purpose, and I am living my life in love, and out loud. Life is too short to wait on things that may never come. Today, I look in the mirror, and ask myself “Woman, what are you waiting for?”. The Woman looks back at me, and says, “I’ve been waiting far too long, but as of this moment, I won’t wait anymore“.

Live your life, and stop being a person IN WAITING.

Dani💋❤️

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