WHAT A DAY!!
I pray that everyone has had a better day and week than I have. If this post helps you get through this day, please share it in the hopes that it helps someone else.
So much is happening in my life simultaneously; I can’t keep up. I’m trying to stay positive. Especially since my period ofdisplacement…homelessnes …transition or whatever you want to call it. I’ve been doing all I can to prevent being a burden to anyone, AND still be of help to others. With the being the case, I have to help me first. What I refuse to do, however, is allow anyone (mother, children, friends…anyone) to attempt to make me feel guilty for doing what’s best for my mental health.
For my entire life, I’ve put everyone first. I sacrificed my happiness for those I love, and some who (I later found out) didn’t love, or like me. I’ve given my last to ensure that others had what they needed. After a lifetime of this, I grew tired. God revealed to me that it’s ok to put myself first. I am able to still love others while loving me. It’s crazy to me, that people think that standing firm on what you believe is being mean. Anything that negatively affects my mental health is a NO for me. It should be a NO for all of us.
While all of this is true, it doesn’t mean that I don’t care and am not stressed out about how someone will make it if I don’t help. I am not heartless; therefore, I care. I’m saying all of this because although everything is coming together for me, there are still things, and people, that make this process difficult. People who should be working with me, refuse to do anything but work against me.
As stressful as these past few days have been, yesterday was the tip of the iceberg. I’m simply washing my hands. I am no longer dealing with ungrateful people. I awakened this morning 🌄…thank God…with this pounding headache. I know that it is stress. This has confirmed for me that I just have to love people from a distance…even family. I’ve come too far in my recovery…my healing journey…to allow anyone or anything to have me where I used to be. IT’S A NO FOR ME, and unfortunately, this includes my parents.
Judgement from others has never been a worry for me. IDGAF what anyone who hasn’t walked in my shoes has to say. All I know is, when my head feels like it’s about to explode 🤯, I’m bowing out. I can’t want more for others than they want for themselves…none of us can. Sometimes loving people, means letting go and allowing them to figure it out.
On this beautiful, Tuesday, I’m trusting God to do what I can’t. Im praying, and leaving it all in His hands. I’ve given my worries and fears to Him. I have to give Him the fears of others as well. I’ve decided to let go and trust God. I encourage anyone who is struggling to help others who need your help, but don’t want it, to simply trust God. He sees you trying. He sees your burdens, and He will work it out. Some burdens are not for you to bear. Your happiness matters. 😢
Have a Terrific Tuesday on Purpose. GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I.
Dani💋❤️
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