Author Archives: dyingtobeperfect1926

They say it’s negativity, but I say it’s just a fact of life. No matter how positive you may be, there will still be heartache, pain and strife. No matter what we do, oftentimes, life will simply be just that…LIFE. There is not much we can do about it. We either have to give up,Continue reading “SAME OLE BS BUT A NEW YOU”

The really horrible thing about narcissism, in my opinion, is that it slowly, over time, damages the confidence and beautiful spirit of some of its victims, usually, empaths. The lies that are told, games that are consistently played and manipulation tactics that are used, begin to wear away at the very core of its victims.Continue reading “Consistently Inconsistent”

Sitting here in my comfortable space, doing what I do…me. The more time passes, the more at peace I feel and the happier I become each day. One thing I have realized is that we, as a people, are truly hurting, bitter, and lost. Something has taken place since Covid that has really affected theContinue reading “CONVENIENT CHRISTIANS”

It’s Christmas, but no one can really tell. For the first time in years, I can honestly say that I wasn’t bombarded by Christmas. There has been hardly any Christmas music being played, and until now I haven’t seen many people rushing the stores. Not many people seem to be in the Christmas spirit; yet,Continue reading “LIFE GOES ON”

Today has started out extremely challenging. I lost my cool…I am totally overwhelmed, physically sick, frustrated, and plain disappointed. I am not only disappointed in myself, but also in society as a whole…people overall. There are only five days remaining until Christmas, and after doing so well, I’m crashing. Class is stressful, finances are unmanageable,Continue reading “LOOK FOR THE LIGHT”

WOW! Exactly one week from today, Christ is coming! Yes, Christmas is in one week. Where did the time go? I still remember preparing for my Snickerdoodle to go away to college, and here it is, he has completed his first semester. So much has been happening in the lives of so many of us.Continue reading “WHEN WILL WE CHANGE???”

On this week before Christmas, Saturday, December 17, 2022, taking all the lessons, blessings, losses, trials, triumphs, challenges and tragedies of the past four years, I am now placing them in my BASKET OF COLLECTIBLES. I am FINALLY Seeing every experience, encounter and person as a part of the necessary journey that I must endureContinue reading “A CHANGE HAS COME”

Dear Narccissist, It’s a bit crazy that I find myself, a week after what would have been our twenty-fourth anniversary, still asking you for something. It seems as if I have forever been begging…pleading…asking you to do SOMETHING. Both during our marriage and since the day you walked out, I could never love you enough,Continue reading “A LETTER TO MY NARC”

I wasn’t going to post this, but after the day I had, here it is. Today is December3, 2022, and I WOULD be celebrating my twenty-fourth wedding anniversary. Instead, I am HAPPILY celebrating FINALLY being divorced. YES! today I say to me HAPPY DIVORCESERVERSARY! I am THANKFUL…I am HAPPY…I am at PEACE…I am FREE. InContinue reading “HAPPY DIVORCESERVERSARY”

And just like that, Thanksgiving is an afterthought, and Christmas is underway. Time after time, year after year, we move from one tradition, one holiday, and one assignment to the next. We are always planning and doing, moving about from day to day, preparing for the next thing. Each year, many of us do theContinue reading “I’M SHOWING MY NEW ME IN 2023”