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As I’m sitting here relaxing, I’m realizing that I’m feeling really good about being here alone, in peace on a Sunday morning. I was alone last night as well, and I was ok with that too. Not long ago, I would have been crying and feeling sorry for myself because of how lonely I felt.Continue reading “At Peace”

It’s one week into the new year, and the positivity I’m feeling is amazing. I’m proud to have left the negativity in 2021. Each day I arise with a purpose. That purpose is to live each day better than the next. I have come to realize that when I simply plan to accomplish one thingContinue reading “The trick of the mind”

As I reflect on the last two and a half years of my life, a million thoughts go through my mind. Disbelief, excitement, thankfulness, and confirmation, to name a few. One that doesn’t creep in is doubt. I am everything except doubtful about any of the thoughts that I have now. The opportunity for meContinue reading “In God’s own timing”

So, I’m still not sleeping, but now, it’s not due to the lonely nights as much as it is due to the bubbling excitement. The birthing of the new life that is within me…MY PURPOSE! The purpose was always there. God has one for each of us; however, I could not define what my purposeContinue reading “Looking forward to the new you in 2022”

It’s a new year and what a better time for a new, a BETTER you! Most are worried about the new on the outside, but what really makes the difference is the new on the inside. Our mental health is more important than our outer appearance. For so long, the stigma of mental illness hasContinue reading “A new you in 2022!”

And just like that, Christmas is over. That one day that everyone prepares for like no other…IT CAME AND WENT. Just like the holiday, so did my positive mood. The days leading up to Christmas 2021 were very similar to Christmas 2020. No matter how hard I tried to remain positive, negativity crept in. AllContinue reading “Living life anew or same old you?”

And just like that, Christmas is gone…another one in the book. After an absolute horrible week, today wasn’t bad. The dread of today had me crying myself to sleep last night. Longing for former traditions, not people, I thought about previous Christmases and memories made. Although things today did not go as planned, we hadContinue reading “Christmas 2021”

Wednesday, December 22, 2021, there are just three days remaining until Christmas day. Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to remain as positive and upbeat about the holiday as I would have liked. On a positive note, I haven’t been as negative as I normally am, and I also haven’t spoken negatively about the holiday asContinue reading “Christmas just ain’t Christmas…”

It’s Sunday, December 19, 2021. Day 25 of being in the BLACK. On this rainy Sunday morning, as I think about the past week, I realize that in the midst of my storm, God has still been good. Even with a pending eviction, I know that staying in my current residence or relocating to aContinue reading “Trust the process”

“Is it me?’‘ My coined phrase. I definitely have to ask myself this on a regular basis. People can’t be this damn clueless! I simply do not comprehend how in this day and age with life being as fragile as it is, how we, collectively cannot just support one another. I see people receive moreContinue reading “Friendship ain’t what it used to be”