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It’s Wednesday, December 15, 2021. As I sit here thinking about Fr. Miller and how much I miss him, I know that he is in a much better place. I think of him often; as I have since my husband left and my life fell apart. He was not only my pastor; he was aContinue reading “Our last days”

Yet another morning I struggle to hold back the tears…feeling like a failure who has just wasted time and years. Although we know that our children and the memories we made is the good that came out of our pain, we often feel like the years that we invested were a waste. That feeling isContinue reading “One day at a Time”

Happy Sunday! today is December 12,2021 and Day 18. I awakened to a text message “Good morning beautiful”. After spending yet another weekend alone, I could look at this negatively since I was alone, or positively because it was the first message of my day. I simply allowed it to be a positive start toContinue reading “Good morning BEAUTIFUL!”

It’s December 11, 2021, Day 17. There are only fourteen days left until Christmas. As I lay here alone on yet another Saturday night, I reflect on the last few days and nights. Those too, spent alone, I realize that the closer Christmas gets, the harder it gets for me to stay in the holidayContinue reading “The closer it gets, the HARDER it gets”

Already it’s Thursday, December 9, 2021. Day 14. Time is quickly passing by. It’s amazing how great I truly feel on the inside. Regardless of what goes on around me, I am truly thankful for what I know will be nothing but blessings and peace to come. When we choose to take charge of ourContinue reading “The amazing you in 2022”

Another morning of waking up to negative bank accounts, negative phone calls, and negative attitudes. How then do I go to work with a positive attitude? Today I can say through prayer and determination, using the coping skills that I’ve learned in therapy, and just knowing that I no longer want to be miserable. WhenContinue reading “Staying positive in a negative world”

At 11:32pm on Day 12 of Dying to be Perfect’s Christmas holiday in the BLACK challenge. My morning started off in the RED. I slept horribly; awoke every two hours after not falling asleep until after 12am. I left the house late and was therefore late for my second day of work. My bank accountContinue reading “Nothin’ like peace of mind.”

Oftentimes our feet become planted; stuck as if in quicksand. The more we call ourselves trying to move forward the further in reverse we go. We know what we need to do but we fail to take action. We actually do the exact opposite. We end up putting ourselves in a deeper hole by failingContinue reading “Time to move forward”

I awake this morning as I have every morning for the past two and a half years…tired from a lack of sleep. I tossed and turned, watching the clock, wondering, hoping, praying, anticipating the future. This time, however, it’s with confidence and excitement…a peace that I haven’t felt in many years. I awoke excited thatContinue reading “Stepping into 2022”

In this fast- paced world, where everything is about the here and now, life has become cruel. Far too often, we are unable to distinguish the friends from the enemies…everyone pretty much has the same characteristics. Oftentimes, not knowing whom to trust, we love the wrong person too long and the right person not longContinue reading “Livin’ Ain’t Easy”